Monday, December 29, 2014

As I start this new post,  I also realize I will soon be starting a new chapter of my life..  one without children to to take care of on a daily basis, one without PTA meetings, school plays, soccer games, first loves, this is new.and the reality of what is coming has hit me hard.  It is unfamiliar ground, shaky ground. Lot's of time to do whatever I want. AND with that time  I found myself thinking a lot about the past. Looking at picture of my children little, the different stages of life that they have conquered. I have found myself thinking about things I wish I might have done better. Been a little more patient in this situation, stood my ground on that... and so on. And I find myself saying...
"How Fascinating!"  
I think many people would find that a weird way to reflect as would have I  before today. But while doing some self discovery I came across a blog of a very talented blogger and a young lady who seems wise beyond her years. It is interesting how I came across her blog UNFANCY looking for a way to to control my wardrobe and found so much more.

She shared some inspiring words from  a favorite author of hers. Benjamin Zander, for those who have never heard of him he is renown conductor of the Boston Philharmonic and this is what he said,
“I actively train my students that when they make a mistake, they are to lift their arms in the air, smile, and say, “How fascinating!” It is only when we make mistakes that we can really begin to notice what needs attention.”
Have you ever had a moment when someone said something it hits you like a bolt of lightening? 
.. an ah ha moment....
How true is that? When we make a mistake, isn't that just another chance to change?
To grow?
To develop muscles we haven't used, and opportunity to become more.
Be more!

Isn't that what each day is about? HOW FASCINATING! How exciting! How wise this young woman is. I am so excited to start a new day. To see what way I grow. I found it appropriate for the stage I am at in my life.
That I can just throw up my arms and smile with such a simple phrase...  
Each day a gift, each step another opportunity to become who I want to be.
To discover me...
what a joy..

        it truly is fascinating!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

WOW Have I really been gone that long?

I used to love to blog! Get my words out there and share my thoughts. 
Was anyone else really
them anyway?
 I doubt it.

 But it didn't matter they were out there floating in the www. 

And then like most things I love, I stopped.
 I let anything, everything and nothing get in the way.
I am the queen of excuses..
Oh the kids need me...
Not really the only one home now is Ari... 

Oh the animals need me... not really... they are actually quite easy to take care of...

 Oh my job.. NOT REALLY... you can't have an easier boss or job than I am blessed with.
 I mean REALLY
 I just stop.. I am never sure why?  Not that I don't have a full life, but why wouldn't I want to share my experiences? Share my journey, with even just me if that is all that ever sees it
 I guess what I am saying is "HELLO www" I am back!
 Have you missed me?

When You Have To Admit The Truth Even To Yourself

Don't you hate when the truth of something that you would rather deny hits you upside the head? Tonight that happened to me. The truth being I am lazy! Man I hate that word..But it FITS! I am really ashamed of that fact but I think it is time to own up to the truth. YEP I am lazy!

 What a horrible thing to have to admit.
 Especially to yourself

 But tonight as the Mr and I were enjoying our dinner, I realized it took me all of maybe 30 minutes of my day to save us easily $30 to $40  that eating out would have cost us. $40 for 30 minutes of my time. I mean most people myself included have to work 3 to 4 hours to make that!

So that got me to asking the dreaded question...???  
"Honey how much do you think we spend a month eating out, with the kids and just us" The reply was horrifying  embarrassing shocking (though my lazy butt already knew it) 
"Oh about somewhere between $400 and $500 a month" 

WHAT... Seriously! How ridiculous am I?!?
 I guess the better question being how spoiled and lazy am I? 
 I am so ashamed.
  It's not like I am a bad cook, actually I am a  good cook As a matter of fact the Mr. is always saying he likes my cooking more then most of the places we eat! And  I have lots of food to make though much of it gets tossed out to the animals (which they love)  due to being not used  in a  timely manner or end up in the compost. The intention is always good when I buy it, but the laziness... oh the laziness!


   How can  I have of been so wasteful when God has blessed me with so much! What kind of example am I setting for my kids! The shame!  I mean seriously I work hard to make sure my family has the best I can provide.
 I make my own cleaning products and  laundry products. I only buy meat from a local farmer, have chickens for eggs (and soon poultry), dairy goats for milk,buy fresh fruits and veggies when out of season and I can't grow them myself. Make my own soaps, and other beauty products And I do this to not only to make sure I know what my family is using and eating but to save $$$ and then I create this kind of personal waste!

 I mean I have NO idea where the meat or products these fast food restaurants or dinning establishments
 use is coming from. I am so picky in what I buy and then I trot off with my family to use, eat whatever.

 I vow here and now to turn over a new leaf.

 I have all these wonderful recipes in PINTEREST that I am going to organize and start using. I am going to become the chef, the homemaker I always wanted to be. I can do this. It means less time being lazy, not so much hulu, not so much FB and a little more planning on my part but I know I can do this.

I will make a different recipe each night for the next week (except for our one monthly date night) and either keep the recipe or let it go. I might even blog about each one. Well I guess that is it. I just had to put in writing so I can hold myself accountable. What do you do to make sure your family gets good home cooked meals or save with the family budget?