To realize that all my stress, frustration, disappointment, anger, irritation, pissed-offedness comes from one little thing? ME!!! I have been setting myself up for all of this without even realizing it by MY expectations... of myself and mostly of others. I build up all these expectations in my head of what other people should do, what my life should be like, how other people should behave
and yet it’s all fantasy. It’s not real.
It is in my mind...
So here is my plan... I am going to take ALL my expectations, and throw them in the ocean.
Wanting a parent to act like a parent instead of friend isn't going to happen, and there is nothing I can do to make it happen so I am picking that one up and throwing it into the ocean (ok I don't have an ocean but my pond!)
Wanting a lazy teen to stop acting like a prima donna that she has become and thinking I can control it is crazy!
Wanting another to get it together and realizing that partying all the time isn't going to make life better but harder... another expectation I need to let go! PLOP!
Wanting my parents to have control over their lives instead of giving it all away to a dream that may or may not happen.
Bye!Bye... these are things I can not control, these are things I am not meant to control... these are trials I am not meant to fix or CONTROL. There are things in life that I have to let others learn.
SO I am going to picture all the expectations I have for myself, my life, my MR, my kids, and the world.
Pick up an expectation and let it go... watching the rippling effects as it is carried away... never to be mine again.
I am going to let them go, I am going to stop letting my expectations control my life.
NOW I will live my life without them.
Life where I am NOT disappointed or frustrated or angry because people aren't living the way I want them to. So hard but so worth it if I can learn to walk in a world excepting people for who they are. Doing what I do because it is what I want to do, not because I expect something in return. Accepting how things are not the way I want them to be. It will take some time to learn this new behavior and make it happen but I am determined to do it.