I have never done this before but it sounds like fun and honestly lately I have been looking for good clean fun. I am bored in a lot of ways even though I have been finding new things to learn, chickens, canning and such.I think I am sort of dissatisfied with parts of my life.
I feel like I have worried about what other people think for so long I don't know how to loosen up. And I regret it.
I have hated having my pictures taken because I hate my smile. Or hair or outfit. But then I regret not having moments caught forever because I was to *something* to get in front of the camera.... I confess that I had a opportunity to have my picture with President George W Bush and I stepped out of the picture because I was worried about how dirty I was and how I looked and didn't want to ruin the picture. Here I had been for 3 days sleeping in my car to help Tornado victims in Greensburg and I am meeting the President of the United States and I step out of the picture! *sigh*...
See what a problem I have???I am no fun. I think I take the fun out things because I get so worried about doing it perfect or at least look like I am! Where does this crap come from??? How do I get so wrapped up in what I think instead of just enjoying what I feel? I want to live in the moment... Not go insane or anything but just learn to laugh, at myself, others just out loud laugh. I don't! When I laugh there is no sound, it is somewhere deep inside but anyone hardly ever hears me laugh. I miss the sound of my laughter I often wonder what it would sound like. Is it loud? Is it obnoxious to others? It might actually be pretty.
WOW what a confession. lol