Friday, February 8, 2013

Time to CONFESS... Friday

It's Friday... time to confess...

  *It has been a long LONG time since my last confession

* I have missed it

* I like reading other peoples confessions... They make me laugh!

* I brought the cat in.. when the Mr finds out I am DEAD!

* Hope HE doesn't read this!

* I need to get stronger.. she was there at the back door looking at me with those sweet little eyes and I just caved... I am in so much trouble!

* She is a barn cat.. NOT a house cat... and this could be my last confession!

* I will miss reading every ones confessions :(

* If I wind up dead the Mr. did it! I am buried in the back yard.. Please put flower out there oh and if we get a pig all of sudden that is how he got rid of me! YUCK! 

* I watch to much BONES... Usually when I am eating... I think I have issues...

* I need to go take care of the animals.. It is COLD outside and MY bed is warm with the cat all snugly! We agree I am dead but SHE thinks it is worth it!

* This is very weird since I have NEVER been a cat person... but she is cute and sweet and I have got to get a backbone when it comes to the animals!

* The rooster has been crowing for hours NOW and if I don't let him and the girls out soon I will have hell to pay!

* I hate the cold!

Well that is my confession today... come play along and link up!Link up and confess!

No Regrets?!?

Have you ever thought about what the above words mean? I had a " AH HA" moment the other day over just those words and found it very... frustrating, eye opening moment I guess. I was talking to the Mr. and we were having one of those moments when you are talking about nothing but then it gets serious real quick.
 (Kind of like driving down the road enjoying the scenery and BLAMO  you find yourself hit head on, and you sit back and wonder" how the heck did that happen?"  I was talking about
Like "If I were young again what I would do differently?"
  Regrets, things I wish I could take back or change so the outcome would be different. And I turn to him and ask"What regrets do you have honey?" And the Mr. replys, 
 Seriously that was his answer! NONE!!! Well because I have been hurt by some not so great choices throughout our 13 years together  I was pissed angry, hurt and astonished that he would say such a thing. I mean doesn't  EVERYONE have regrets?

  So as I felt the temperature of the car change..
 Mainly mine!

 I started thinking about his answer which was simply, "If I hadn't done, been or traveled down the road I have I wouldn't be here, in this time, this place".  I thought about that answer for a couple of days and in doing so I realized, Isn't that what it is all about? Wasn't HIS answer the correct one?

 The HARD kind, the kind that makes you wish you could just get through it. 

 Break through and see the sun shinning down on you again.

 It is the kind that makes you STRONG when the whole world seems to be crumbling around you. When you have to say goodbye to something or someone you love, when you have to find that inner strength to keep walking even though you are tired or worn. 

Could you imagine how BORING our lives would be if every time we had a regret we could just rewind, go back or  start over. What would you have missed out on?What lesson would you have NOT learned? 
What growth would have escaped YOU?
 So as much as wish I had never hurt someone, or lied, or let someone (including myself) down I am so GRATEFUL for the lessons I have learned. For the person I am becoming because of those lessons.
 So I guess I finally get it... 
No regrets just lessons LEARNED...  not having that opportunity to me would be the biggest regret I think we could ever have.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

10 Things Home Steading Has Taught Me

Well it has been almost 3 years since I started this journey of  Homesteading and here is what I have now learned.

1. If you don't like HARD WORK don't homestead!
 Homesteading is WORK! Very Hard work!

2. Poo is no longer disgusting!  That' right,when you shovel it, move it, step in it, compost it, IT just becomes another something you deal with. I no longer smell it, or get sick by it. Which surprises me since I used to get sick to my stomach with just butt humor
Still don't get that but at least it doesn't make me sick anymore.

3. Chickens sing! YES that is right they sing, and it such a sweet sound!
 Kind of like a cat purring, they walk around just happy and singing. 
 Makes ME Smile  :)

And speaking of CATS.... Brings me to #4

4. Never say never! Yep I now have a barn cat. See that girl holding that little girl yep she did it. She talked me into the impossible. We NOW have a barn CAT.  It seems like when you have one animal, it just seems more doesn't that big of a deal to have another.
 Welcome to the family Azreal...
 YOU are such a sweet girl and we are happy you are here.

5. Predators and Dark wait for NO one! It doesn't matter if you daughter is receiving a special award that night, and the person presenting is taking FOREVER! Nor does it matter if you have a late night work dinner. When it gets dark you better be home, (even if that means 4:30pm in the middle of winter) or be willing to pay kids to put your animals away.  

6.   Animals that are supposed to be wild, can be very tame. .

Lexi one of our chickens thinks that the MR. is her best friend. She follows him, talks to him, and defends him from the dogs and likes to use him as a roost. Pretty funny to see how chickens can decide that you belong to them Even though the MR. says it isn't so...
  I think she wins!

7. If you like things all in order, and nothing out of place, then HOMESTEADING is not for you! There is always a new "project" you will be working on. Something that you can always improve or try!

 8.Your animals depend on you. It doesn't matter how cold or hot it is, it doesn't matter if you don't feel good, they need you! They count on you, they are as helpless as a new born without you. So don't just get them because they are cute when they are little. They deserve your best so if you are going to have them you need to commit.

9. When you want to go somewhere, leave things behind. FORGET IT! There is no just leaving, last minute road trips are a thing of the past. BUT with careful planning and a great Mother In Law you can get away for a little while. Make sure it isn't for LONG....... But every once in a while you have to take a little break.. and after all the hard work... YOU deserve it!

10. Homesteading is an adventure. And as much as you have to deal with the hard stuff, meet deadlines, and make sacrifices AND  it is SOOOO worth it! I am learning so much about myself, finding joy in things I never thought I would and I don't regret a single moment of it!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

My Wish For 2013

Wow did this year pass by fast. So many new and exciting things, some painful, some scary and so much growth. Hard to believe a new year is here so fast, but as each year starts I say a little prayer and make a little wish for each of those I love most, and this year here is my wish for each of you,

Tyler my beautiful boy, For you I wish "DIRECTION". It seems that the age that you are has so much confusion, so much excitement to blind you and let you forget who YOU are. So much lies ahead for your future. Real  love, finding your own voice, finding what you really want out of life!  You seem so lost and tossed about by what other people think, or want and need from you. Sometimes I worry you hear them more then you. So sweet boy, I hope you find your direction, your place in this big world and you take that course that is going to bring you inner peace and make your life what you desire it to be.You deserve it Son! You deserve all the desires of your heart but they are not going to "just come to you" you have to find a path and walk it... a direction that will start you to so many wonderful things. I love you.

KC'lynn my beautiful girl, For you I wish "COURAGE". So much lies ahead of you soon. I am so excited for all the journeys you are about to start. I hope you will leave old things behind, at least for a while and take the adventure of figuring out who YOU are. Making a time that is all about you, for you. It is the only time in woman's life that she can truly do that and not be selfish and I hope you will. I can't wait to help you pack for college, get late night calls of excitement or loneliness and hear how you are making your life your own. All those things that you leave behind, fears, friendships, loves will follow you in away. They have made you who are and the ones that are to be your future will still be there when you are ready. Those that aren't will be gentle reminders of shaping you into the woman you are meant to be. So my darling girl go forth with courage and take on the world. Let no one, thing or fear stop you. You have everything you need and I am here to cheer you on always. I love you.

Ari my strong, amazing girl, For you I wish "FUN". You are so amazing. You truly leave me sometimes wondering what I can teach you. You are so strong, so sure of yourself, detailed, motivated and sometimes I worry you are to much so at such a young age. I don't want you to look back on these years and have regrets because you took life so serious, because you felt you had to do so much in so little time. Sweetie take some time to breathe, to be silly, to do things that are for no other reason then enjoy them. Slow down, take lots of time to laugh, time to play. You will be an adult soon enough with all the requirements that will weigh you down. So don't try to hard, don't stress yourself out to much. Every once in while just have some fun. You deserve it, you have earned it and sometimes just being FUN is it's own reward. I love you.

Lizzie my sweet girl, For you I wish "QUIET" Sometimes I feel as though you are go, go go. I love that you are out there to experience everything life has to offer but sometimes I worry that you will miss hearing your own voice because you are always surrounded by noise. Music in your ears, fingers typing away on your phone, running from one place to another. I am thrilled that you find so much excitement, and so many people to make your life exciting but every once in while I would like to see you quiet, hearing your own voice, learning to know it and trust it more then other peoples noise. At some point in your life that is going to be a life saver. So sweet girl slow down, quiet yourself and the noise around you occasionally and just listen to you. Your own voice is truly the sweetest sound you can know, she has a lot to say if you listen. I love you.

My Mr. my love, For you I wish "FAITH" I wish you to find the peace you search for by learning how to believe again. I see you worry about the future and I know you do it because of your love for your family but darling have faith. Know that all the things we try to control are truly not in our control. Find that inner peace by believing and having faith in things that are bigger then you or anything will ever be. Have faith that the habits that can seem to run you can be conquered. Have faith that with Gods help you can be all that you desire to be. That you can have the captain in control. There are so many great things about you, so many things we can all learn from you. I love you.

Brad, my dearest friend, For you I wish  more of what I said last year, but since it is your request that not be my wish, I wish you "POSSIBILITIES" in all things. New starts. new relationships, new opportunities, new adventures. You deserve all these things. You are a good person and I feel at times you are missing out on so many great things, because you have been hurt by others, myself included and I hope that will change. That you will take life and make it all the things it should be for you. That you will find all those things you have been going without and that you will embrace all the possibilities that I know the world has for you. You are so dear to me and I want to see you happy.

Rachel, yes you! For you I wish you "STRENGTH" I wish you the strength for all that may lie ahead. That you have all that will be required of you to lead your family, to be an example for your children. To do those things which scare the hell out of you and know that you are strong enough if need be. That you will prevail in all things if you don't try to do it alone. That great things lie ahead and that you are in control of your destiny and your life. That though the walk at times may seem it will destroy you, it will not. You have been brought to this time and become who you are because you have more inside you then you know. And that many great things lie ahead if you use the strength required to get them.

To all my extended FAMILY and FRIENDS, I wish you a year of great things, I wish you health, peace and prosperity, I wish you new beginnings, fresh starts, continued loves and all the great things God has in store for each of you. Thank you for the blessings you are to me, for the things I have learned from each of you this last year, for the kindness you have shown me or my family, for the tears you wiped, for the cheering you have done, for the laughter you have given me or those I love. Thank you for all you mean to me or those I love most. HAPPY NEW YEAR! MAY 2013 BE A GREAT ONE FOR US ALL!!!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

The Family Get Away

Well I did it! I said I would, then I did just as the "Little Little Engine Who Could"and said, "I think I can, I think can" held my breathe and jumped in! What is this amazing task that I completed you ask? Took my family on a week vacation. ( I know... your asking whats the BIG DEAL? ) Well believe it or not it  is our families first real vacation. 
 Leave the work at home ( I only got caught working a few times...) , ALL the animals, gather up teens from all over and go! And did we ever.( The Mr. said if I could pay for it we would go) so  I saved my pennies and off we went!

One week of relaxing, swimming, eating (no calorie counting) and family time and even a few romantic moments (wink wink) and it was so worth it!

Here it is in a pictorial...
 We are off! (In more ways then one!)
 Poor Mr. He doesn't know she is about to get him! 
(Such a creeper)

The boy trying to be cool! ( lol)
Love the glasses upside down... crazy kid!


Beautiful KC'lynn!

 The Soda Machine (Makes over 100 different sodas) 
The kids wanted to play with this all day!
Sleeping Beauty!  (He will KILL me when he sees this one! hee hee hee)
Silly man!

 This is the way the Mr. enjoyed the beach the whole time!
We are puffer fish!
We found a mermaid!
Everything is BIGGER in TEXAS including the BUGS!!!! YIKES!

 Sand castles!
She just found out they had wings!

My beautiful babies!
The Mr. and his girls

Getting ready to go take family photos

Enjoying the pool!

It was a great time, a needed break and a memory I will always hold dear...

Friday, June 8, 2012

The Adventure Continues

Well when I started this blog 3 years ago I said I wanted to leave the city behind and get back to the country... little did I know the adventure that awaited me!

Not that I ever knew the country, no grandparents, aunts or uncles on a farm. No family friends with chickens just a lot of episodes of "Little House on the Prairie" when I was growing up. If they only knew how dangerous this show could actually be for some kids!

 I mean don't we look like that? Ok not quite but we had a goal and that is a starting point.... RIGHT???

So we started the adventure with the 100 year old Farm House

then the chickens,

 then the ducks,

 then the 2 dairy goats

and so on......
 and so on... 
BUT being one who has never been present when anything other then my kiddo's were born I was in for a new experience. And a new experience it was... BABY GOATS with me assisting. AND was there a trained vet near by??? of course not!!! Just good ol YouTube and a dear friend (thanks Deana I couldn't have done it with you!). BUT we did it. I cried, I was scared but 2 healthy little bucks Zac and Zeke are here!

(aren't they precious!!!)

And we just love them! 

Together we got through it and I don't think either of us could be happier.
 (Zoie did amazing as this was her first time too!)

SO the MORAL to the story... IF YOU want to get back to the homestead but never thought it possible because it wasn't where you started... REMEMBER if I can do it ANYONE can.. and in the process you might find that it is all you would ever need for adventure and peace!

Friday, March 2, 2012

KC's College Tour

Well I did it... I sucked it up and did it. I have finally accepted that my oldest daughter is going to leave me and find a life of her own...(Sigh) and how did I do this you ask? or not....

Well "we" went on a college tour together. She has been on 4 others with school officials or teachers but never with MOM. She said when she thought she had found the one we would go together. And today was that day! It was hard even though it is a whole year away. I mean REALLY hard! BUT it was only 2 hours away (she drives one hour, I drive one hour and we are together again) ='s one Happy Momma!

Do I sound NEEDY or what!?!  But I love her so much the thought has me already missing her....

BUT if you could have seen her face. Seen the way she lit up when we walked the dorms, went and talked to professors, and walked the campus... she was HOME!

At least the home she will soon take on.
 Again a year from now...
 ( I know I know...suck it up you big baby!)

 but sometimes it takes me a while to deal when it comes to my kiddos.... and for some reason even more when it is one of my daughters...

because I still remember this girl....

I do think it is going to be a great fit for her. One of the best colleges for her degree in Elementary Education and a minor in theatre....(she thinks) it was also just named the safest campus in Ks. So that helps too...

SO I guess now it scholarship time... cause look at that face... 

How could I not make sure this happens!